3 weeks later we finally reach the “one more day”… I’m still not sure how I feel about that. I know it’s not good. It’s emotional, exhausting, scary, feelings of lack of control, and maybe a little desperation. However, THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO, therefore I just have to accept it. Too bad my brain refuses to go along.
One more day until I walk into the hospital and the surgeon lobs off a boob. Fun times. Really the boob, or lack of as of Friday morning, is not the issue. The issue is that this is the first physical step of the cancer being real, the first visible consequence. I won’t have a choice but to accept it. Although who wants to…
Right now I just want this done because being positive has become increasingly difficult. Luckily I have amazing friends and family who are trying their hardest to help. Today I was grateful to be able to ride again with Madison, Dan, my sister Michelle and Jen. We hacked through the beautifully peaceful forest.
Later we went to our favourite Mexican restaurant again!
Although I’m completely exhausted I am looking forward to my last run with Tara tomorrow!
For now, I have one more day of what my life currently looks like. Much more to come on the after…
I can’t even fathom all that you’re feeling right now but allow yourself to feel it all. It is all part of the process of getting to a place of peace and healing. It’s ok to be scared, to be angry, to be sad. Cry, scream, be so mad you want to spit! This is not fair. It sucks! But your family loves you, your friends surround you with prayer and support. And each day is one more day for a miracle.
I will continue to pray for you and your family.
My family and I we are all here for you….
I read somewhere a quote and maybe it is the right thing to say now…
“You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only chance you have “
We pray for you.❤️
Sending love and and warmest thought to you and family.
Please let me know if I can help in any way. Happy to have the children if you need some time.please let us know…anytime❤️💜