2018 …..

Happy New Year!

I know most people are usually excited about a new year; new year, new beginnings, blah blah blah. I’ve never really viewed the change of the year as anything so dramatic. Really it’s a reason for us to start fresh, however I like to think I can do this at anytime.

Some would probably say 2017 was a bad year for me. It wasn’t great that’s for sure, but I wouldn’t say it was terrible; I’ve had worse years!

I’m happy to see the end of 2017, however for the first time ever I’m really dreading the new year and 2018. It’s going to suck, I think worse than 2017. I’m going to spend the next 6 months in chemo, radiation then surgery. And after that’s all done, I still need to recuperate. So, I’m not really excited about 2018… sorry ?.

Like 2017, I’m taking this day by day. Today, tomorrow, yesterday and all days until Tuesday I am and have been bit anxious. Tuesday begins the first of the last 3 chemos I will be doing (or so we hope!!!). It’s a new one which means new everything. We all know how much I like the unknown – Not at all! I don’t know how my body will react or my mind. I may be ok, but I may not be… the uncertainty drives me batty!

This all means I’m getting a bit antsy. Back to my yoga mat I go. Deep breathing and chanting are and will be my friend until Tuesday comes.