My body is weakening, my strength is weakening. Everything is very hard. Watching Shane doing everything perfectly so I don’t get upset is hard. Watching Madison hide in her stoic world is hard. Trying to appear normal is hard.
This reality is shitty. There is no good word for it. Coping is nearly impossible.. all I can do is get through the next 13 days until the last injection and then the following 14 days of feeling weak. At least the chemo will be over. Thank God.
For now, I’m in my bubble with the kids and Dan. 1 day at a time…..